I Can't Even Walk

It is God who arms me with strength
and makes my way perfect.
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer;
He enables me to stand on the heights.
He trains my hands for battle;
my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
You give me Your shield of victory,
and Your right hand sustains me;
You stoop down to make me great.
You broaden the path beneath me,
so that my ankles do not turn.  Psalm 18:32-36 NIV


When I started to attend church it was the "music" that kept bringing me back every Sunday.  I never really heard a sermon for three months.   I say music because at that time I didn't even understand that it was worship music.  God used music to speak to my heart and draw me to Him. He knew that music was the way to my heart.

Even now there are certain worship songs, especially old hymns, where tears run down my cheeks as I feel God's presence.  It is not uncommon for me to play a certain worship song over and over again for days.  Every time I press repeat I feel the words go deeper and deeper into my being.   Don't worry I do this in my car so as not to drive my household up the wall.

My sharing with you today is a song that has been playing in my head and on my car radio for the past three days.

The name of this song is:  I Can't Even Walk Without You Holding My Hand.

I thought that number one would surely be me.
Thought I'd be what I wanted to be.
I thought I could build on life's sinking sand.
But I can't even walk without You holding my hand.
I thought I could do a lot on my own.
I thought I could make it all alone.
I thought, I thought of myself as a mighty big man.
But I can't even walk without You holding my hand.
The mountains are too high and the valleys are too wide.
Down on my knees is how I learned to stand cause I can't even walk without You holding my hand.
I can't even walk without You holding my hand.

Lord I pray that this song plays in the heads of everyone that reads this and that the words are fixed into the depths of their being.

Our Guide

For this God is our God forever and ever; He will be our guide even to the end.
Psalm 48:14 NIV

This morning I asked God to open my Bible to the scripture He wanted me to read.
The above Scripture is a reminder to all of us to follow only Him.  As He guides we follow.

The application note in the Life Application Bible (NIV) said the following :

Psalm 48:14
"We often pray for guidance as we struggle with decisions.  What we need is both guidance and a guide - a map that gives us landmarks and directions and a constant companion who has an intimate knowledge of the way and will make sure we interpret the map correctly.  The Bible will be such a map, and the Holy Spirit will be the constant companion and guide. As you make your way through life, use both the map and your Guide."

Our constant Companion and Guide has intimate knowledge of the way and will make sure we interpret the map correctly.

I pray we always follow the map and never lose sight of our Guide.

When The Light Is Dim

Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise Him,
my Savior and my God.
Psalm 42:5  NIV

In Him was life and that life was the light of men.  The Light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.
John1: 4,5  NIV

What came into existence was Life,
and the Life was Light to live by.
The Life-Light blazed out of the darkness;
the darkness couldn't put it out.
John1: 4,5   The Message

In prayer a few weeks ago I thought how good it feels on days when I believe that everything will be all right.  I know that I am not alone in this life and no matter what I face I will get through. My heart feels the Light of His Presence.  I have a peace in my being.
Today was one of those days.

Then there are the days I feel alone and feel the weight of what I have to handle.  I still know I will get through this life but on those days the burden (weighs me down) is heavy. Darkness hovers over me.

I asked God, "How does that happen?  Where does the heaviness come from?  Where
does the peace go?  On both days I know you God, but on one day my heart feels and sees Your light and on the other day the light seems dim."

God's answer to me was to write.   I prayed, " empty me out God," and then started to write.

The following is what poured out of me:

"The mountains are so high... I feel alone and tired...  I wonder why the mountains;  always the mountains.

The burdens of my life are on me to figure out; to handle. 

I know God is here, but the darkness is telling me He isn't with me.  Discouragement is taking over and pulling me down.  God's light has dimmed. The peace is gone.  Darkness is fighting to take over.  

Why does His light seem dim?   I know in my head that God is in me and beside me, but my heart is heavy today.

Where from yesterday to today did this happen?
Where and when did Satan find the opening to come in with the darkness?                                                      
When did my grip on God's hand loosen?  Loosen just enough for Satan to enter?"

Help us God. 
Help us to always remember that we cannot dispel the darkness. 
It is You who dispels the darkness.   
We need the Holy Spirit to empower us.  Help us depend on You so that we will be empowered by the Holy Spirit.  
I ask you God to take our strength and give us Your strength.

But when He, the Spirit of truth, comes, He will guide you into all truth (John16:13 NIV).

Everyday

Everyday pray.
Everyday repent of our sins and ask Him to forgive us.
Everyday thank Him for the blessings in our life.
Everyday read His Word.
Everyday ask God for His Presence.
Everyday ask Him to set the priorities of our day.
Everyday in all things ask Him to direct our steps.
Everyday put  the Armor of God on ourselves and our loved ones.
Everyday.

Satan's job is to move us away from God's light and into darkness. 
Satan preys on our vulnerabilities.
Satan is darkness and his plan is to break our unity with God.    

Everyday is our weapon against darkness.
Spiritual battle is every day.
God's light extinguishes darkness.